So, I have been pondering… I have been seeking… I have been praying… asking the LORD some questions. Those life questions that keep a man up at night and those deep questions that everyone will face someday.
How long do I have left on this earth?
What Biblical prophecies will I get to see come to fruition?
Have I been the man God wants me to be?
What does God really think about me?
What do my wife, my kids, my friends, my congregation really think of me?
Have I been a good husband, father, friend, pastor?
What will God have me doing in the foreseeable future?
Have I really made an impact for Jesus?
Have the things I said and the things I have done pleasing to the LORD?
Maybe this is all vanity, but I know that one day I will stand before Holy God Almighty and give an account… as it is written:
Matthew 12:36-37 I tell you, on the day of judgment people will give account for every careless word they speak, for by your words you will be justified, and by your words you will be condemned.”
2 Corithians 5:10 For we must all appear before the judgment seat of Christ, so that each one may receive what is due for what he has done in the body, whether good or evil.
Hebrews 9:27 ….as it is appointed for man to die once, and after that comes judgment
I think it is a good and godly thing to seriously consider the questions that bring us to place of humble circumspection about ourselves and ask God to help us in that introspection. A passage that Paul recorded in the New Testament really keeps things in perspective:
1 Corinthians 11:31-32 But if we judged ourselves truly, we would not be judged. But when we are judged by the Lord, we are disciplined so that we may not be condemned along with the world.
I know I don’t what to be found wanting when I die or Jesus returns – whichever comes first. And I believe that the Bible is clear about confession, honesty and integrity and judgement. If one deals rightly in this matter before the day of account as they stand before the LORD, what has been dealt with here on earth, letting the LORD judge me now, these things will not be part of that day of account.
Letting the LORD Look Deep in My Heart, and I am praying you are too….